Amy Winehouse - Stronger Than Me

You ain't my Daddy. You're acting like a boy-man. I know you ain't gay... you're just a psychopathic jerk who wants me to run "gauntlets" and use me as a triangulation device for your fembots. 

But are you brave enough to sit by the fire with me and cuddle? Nope! Hard pass. Like most men. They want a cardboard cut-out for their fanfic wanks, not a real human.

Apparently, I'm not a person allowed to have a dynamic, direct, face-to-face exchange with real grown ups who own their shit. I'm not a person at all. I'm a holographic reality interface. I'm 2D. I'm not allowed to have anything or anyone real pass through this "zone of interference". Nope, apparently that's kept from me. Plenty of sycophants and narcissists and weaklings and defense mechanisms passing as human- just barely- and psychos and weirdo fetishists. But human beings? No. Apparently I'm not allowed to have them in my life.

#NotMySensei

#NotMyMushin

#NotMyCuppa

#Chickenshit

5D or Psychosis?

Part 2:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewlsBsAKAdI&nohtml5=False

Interesting update, 5/4/2016:

https://weilerpsiblog.wordpress.com/2011/03/26/the-link-between-psychic-ability-schizophrenia-and-psychosis/

Empathy Can Be Built, Botox Destroys Empathy, How A Killer's Brain Differs From Yours

"I recently interviewed Dr. Richard Davidson, a pioneer in the emerging neuroscience of emotion. According to Dr. Davidson, who chairs The Center for Investigating Healthy Minds at the University of Wisconsin-Madison, emotional styles – such as being empathetic, altruistic, optimistic, and resilient – have a neural basis, and you can change your emotional style through mental practice. In other words, how you think directly affects how you feel – both emotionally and physically.
But Botox users beware: According to one study, women who paralyze their facial muscles may show less empathy – and also feel less empathy as well."
 - Barbara Bradley Hagerty, former NPR reporter, author


A Neuroscientist Uncovers A Dark Secret:
http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=127888976

Fallon's brain (on the right) has dark patches in the orbital cortex, the area just behind the eyes. This is the area that Fallon and other scientists say is involved with ethical behavior, moral decision-making and impulse control. The normal scan on the left is his son's. (Courtesy of Jim Fallon.)

Narcissists Uncovered!

Just because someone is mentally ill does not mean they are a Super Soldier.

Mental illness does not give you a "pass" for this. It doesn't put you in a special "club", it doesn't make you smarter, or faster, or stronger. It just makes you mentally ill. 

I feel very sorry for Erin Green Hicks and wish her wellness and healing. But I managed to watch about 15 minutes of her interview with Miles Johnston, and had some more notes on that if I may.

Here's what I immediately detected within five minutes: She may come from a Masonic, possibly Satanic family (certainly doing enough hand gestures in the beginning and making sure she lets us see her hand tattoos), and she has been put in a mind control program.  But it's not IBIS. 

It's a COINTELPRO CIA program that involves scooping up high-functioning paranoid schizophrenics from mental institutions and halfway houses, brain entraining them to think they are a super soldier (or a genius scientist, or a journalist, or a celebrity's long lost son, or whatever they want to make of this person to exploit them, create a distraction and undermine the target) and then unleash them onto the public in a controlled environment like the Super Soldier Summit, where equally brainwashed journalists like Kerry Cassidy will pick up neurolinguistic and post-hypnotic suggestions from any number of buzz words Erin would, like the programmed good soldier she thinks she is, spout off and the next thing you know, you've got the perfect recipe for muddied H2O.

  I wish her well, she definitely might have come from a deep Masonic family (am getting possibly a very other-side-of-the-tracks white supremacist biker gang version of Masonic-Satanic, but Masonic nonetheless) but that STILL doesn't mean she's a super soldier of any kind. In fact, I think she was offered up as a sacrificial good soldier to "throw herself on the sword" and be used as a disinfo agent. 

She may have been very abused, again, she may come from a Masonic family. 

But, she is not in IBIS, she is not a super soldier. The Illuminati has plenty of those types of unfortunate people in surplus for when they want to discredit anyone - a person like myself, for instance-- who steps forward in any category they talk about that is considered "forbidden" and are getting too on target about things.

Is it any wonder the last six, count 'em, SIX interviews I have done have either been significantly interrupted or flat out sabotaged/destroyed? I wouldn't even put it past the Powers That Be to make it seem like Erin's "message" was "tampered with" to give more import to her story as well, but I'm telling you: I smell programmed lies like you smell dinner. I don't make my living on "hunches". I see their delusions wafting off of them like heatwaves on tarmac. I know what I know and that woman is not a super soldier. 

Mind controlled people like Kerry Cassidy need to stop exploiting vulnerable people like this poor woman. At least Miles Johnston keeps his journalistic neutrality hat firmly on when he interviews people, and he can admit that this is disinfo. At least he records it for the dubious document that it is. (Even though he commented that she "exhibits" characteristics of a super soldier. Uh, no. She "exhibits" the characteristics of someone who has spent hours and hours and hours of time absorbing everything and anything she can get her hands on pertaining to the curious phenomenon of the Super Soldier and has boned up on the storyline, but she is no more a Super Soldier than someone dressed up as Spock at a Comic Con who has taken the role just a leeeeeeeetle too seriously.)

There was something she said (mind control scripted) that triggered me and it had to do with the number 42.  Casbolt and this guy who claims he used to draw me on the walls of his cell without knowing it was me when he was in a mental institution both used it a lot in 2010 when we were more in communication. They were fascinated by the number and this man who drew me said in a Skype session once "It all happens when we're 42" cryptically enough. 

Now I am 42 and truth be told, it was weird how Casbolt used to say he was "waking up an army" when I met him in 2010 and used to give me what I now realize were all these neurolinguistic cues that quite frankly, really f'd with my head. 

I don't know why, but he could always manage to inspire the deepest form of dread imaginable in me, which is psychotic on his part, because I know he liked doing that and liked having that effect on me, so whatever. Now I know better. 

But now Erin's spouting off this weird triggered "42" thing and talking about hierarchies and how you "just need to bring light to the world" and how Cas is an archangel and our "Commander" etc etc and it's just-- it's so brainwashed.  Erin (and I know you read this blog, so I will address you directly), if you knew the types of "light bringing" extracurricular activities your "Commander" gets into, you probably wouldn't be saying what you're saying. Dude is easily one of the most depraved in the extreme individuals I've ever met, trust me on that one. 

Another noticeable point that came up was the "no judgements" thing. I've noticed that's something everyone who's insane and/or a drug addict always says because they don't want to be judged themselves for their criminally reprehensible behavior that they've unleashed onto the public once or a million times. The "Hey, don't judge" trope is also what every single narcissist and sociopath has ever said to me, ever (when they were in recovery mode and between trips to rehab and/or being committed/arrested/fired/kicked out of the house).

The way you bring enlightenment to the world is not through the rehashed Illuminati trope of "We are helping humanity gain wisdom through the experiences of torture, death, division and destruction". 

Awwwwwww. What humanitarians y'all are! Thanks, but no.  Again: It's the malignant narcissist's cheap trick way out of everything and a way to avoid responsibility for their actions.  

Anyway, I wish her true light, true love, true healing and true enlightenment, not this superficial claptrap Satanist stuff that's older than a dirty dish rag. 

How about some true light: 

https://anyaisachannel.blogspot.com/2018/12/how-to-fight-nazi.html

Update to my original post about Project IBIS

This update was also added to the original March, 2011 post. Thanks for reading. 


UPDATE: June 15th, 2013

I want to make a slight retraction here. Apparently there have been more visits on this blog post so far than any other post in my blog's history and it is because of the Erin Green Hicks interview with Project Camelot.

My personal feelings are that this woman is a very mentally troubled -- delusional, even --  individual, and that Kerry Cassidy has displayed an incredibly irresponsible, egregious lack of journalistic integrity by allowing this interview to occur without doing due diligence or in using any of her world-famous "discernment" and "intuition" that she claims is so strong.

 I was told by a source that Hicks claims that she was a Rothschild were also false- the name was purchased. Not to mention several wild inconsistencies in her statements in the interview just don't add up - among others, she was given money from the sale of what she said was Jesse James's .357 Magnum, but while the .357 Magnum was first made in 1934, Jesse James died in 1882.

Also, Hicks posted on Facebook in a comment directed at me that she was in basically all the mind control programs ever made, including IBIS, and when I challenged her on this statement, she laid into me about a purely fictitious conversation with someone she refused to name who supposedly told her that I told them how I "rip people off" by "making them think I am psychic".

Uh, no. This conversation never happened. And if I ever said something like that, say, to someone equally delusional like Sarah Stanga when we were still on speaking terms, it would have always and ever been A JOKE. A sarcastic joke. Of course the first thing to go out the window with mental illness is a sense of humor, so I am not surprised if I had said something like that in jest, a not well at all person would have construed that as fact, when it was not.

It's funny that Cassidy, who was born in a military hospital, grew up in the CIA and mind control incubator/hotbed of Palo Alto, California (same area near Berkeley that Alejandro, my "favorite" paid informant/his intelligence agent dad is from/lives and where many agents retire and congregate).

It's also funny to think that Cassidy, who is one of the researchers who attended the infamous Bilderberg-style secret UFO researcher mind-controlled conference in Bucks County, Pa., last fall (http://anyaisachannel.blogspot.com/2013/05/you-got-some-splainin-to-do.html) and has allegedly been involved with a high-ranking MI5 official who has been feeding her disinfo for years, "chose" someone like Hicks to interview.

My "discernment" and "intuition" tells me that Green is in fact a plant who IS in one mind control program- but it's not IBIS. It's one whose name escapes me at the moment, but a very real one that is run by the CIA and uses high functioning paranoid schizophrenics to muddy the waters in COINTELPRO type situations like this. In other words, Erin Green Hicks is probably (allegedly) an unwitting CIA asset.

The feds made Erin think she was all of this and more (if she's a psychic super soldier and a Rothschild, I'm a Mr. Softy ice cream truck) and then unleashed her on the public by "creating an opportunity" at the equally suspect and to be avoided at all costs CIA-infused Super Soldier Summit in California last May.

Regardless, I feel it necessary to clarify on my original points pertaining to what no doubt has been someone messing with my head about the origins of this project, which may or may not exist under the label of "IBIS".

When I first found out about the fact that I was a military abductee by Aaron McCollum in April, 2010, my head was spinning for months. This was without a doubt, one of the most traumatic times in my entire life and I was searching for answers and incredibly vulnerable. When James Casbolt came into my life not long after and told me that he remembered me from mind control programs, to say it was shocking was an understatement. But deep down, I think my reaction was so strong because I actually knew that there was a basis for his statements. I experienced the familiar feeling of having a high level of recognizing him without knowing why, a high volume of psychic activity coming from him, a number of weird synchronicities and odd timings in communication with him, and of course the obvious indicator of my experience as a MILAB, recovered memories of him.

Say what you will about Casbolt, but his interactions with me are indicative of the "real deals" from mind control programs whom I have met, and that is a- very- small number of people.  No more than one or two handfuls of people in the whole world have I met who have this profoundly disturbing effect on me. And fancy that, we all seem to remember each other.

If I remember someone, I remember them. Period. End of story. I don't know how, but it always follows the same dreadful pattern of a flood of bizarre, no context whatsoever but linearly progressed memories unfolding suddenly and horribly like they are on a movie screen, the familiar shock, the feeling of falling down a hole, the horrible dread, the numbness, the sweat that breaks out, the nausea-- all the familiar symptoms of being triggered.

With Hicks, I have experienced none of this. Nada. Zilch.

Do I think people like Casbolt are master manipulators who make no secret of their ability to remote influence people and utilize hypnosis on them through methods like neurolinguistic programming? Absolutely. Do I think there's a possibility I could have been worked over hard mentally by this man? Yes.

But I still cannot escape the fact that Casbolt still might legitimately have been, in if not in IBIS, some kind of similarly eugenics-based psychic/genetic manipulation/human test subject/mind control programs with me.

There are literally too many "coincidences" and telepathic/psychic experiences, and corroborations I've had pertaining to him independent of any kind of remote control "massaging" and "priming of the pump" from him that for him to be this much of a master at organization and control over me seems suspect.

I can personally tell you from direct conversations by phone and years of emails with this man that he has serious trouble distinguishing reality from fantasy as he is definitely plagued with some kind of dissociative disorder (there are hundreds, not just DID) that he still struggles with every day-- even though he is also incredibly psychic, and something definitely has happened to him in mind control programs. Of that I have no doubt.

Do I think that my associations with Casbolt are the sum total of what has happened to me, however? No. Because these triggers have been happening to me with other people, like Aaron McCollum, who has basically admitted to abducting me in a MILAB, and this was months before I had even met or communicated with Casbolt.

I was introduced to another woman who was apparently also abducted by Aaron, and I had the exact same triggered reaction to her that I did to McCollum and Casbolt, and again, this was well before I had even communicated with James. (This woman wishes to remain anonymous, but we both remember each other from the programs and have spooky similarities in how we react to these things, are both incredibly psychic, etc etc.  I also know from recovered memories with her in them that she was a courier like I was and used in what either was something to make us think we were time traveling or we actually were time traveling back to places like Russia and the Truman Administration Oval Office, both in the late 40s/1947.  I have talked about this in several interviews, sorry, can't remember the exact ones right now, but you'll find them if you go to my "Links I like" column of this blog and just click on the ones you'd like to hear, you'll hear me talk about it eventually.)

With that said, please read this original post. Thank you for your patience. It's much less traumatic to have to deal with this horrific- whatever it is that's been done to me- since I originally posted this in March, 2011.  But it's still hard, it's still baffling, and it's still very much a confusing, traumatic reality for me to deal with, one that I hope I can get some light shed on and some answers from before I die.
I want to know what this is that's being done to me. I don't care if it's all just been a big practical joke at my expense and I've just been Punked all along. I just want to know what's really happened.

And I want to prosecute the people who did this. Even if it's just a truth and reconciliation situation. I want the world to know that something horrible has happened to all of us in this and to not let it happen again.

I don't know for sure anymore if I am one of those 42 children, or even if there were 42 children to begin with. Casbolt HAS been a disinformation agent. But not your typical one. There is something going on with him legit, but it takes so long to find the (truly bizarre) kernel of truth in what he says at the heart of it that he makes it almost not worth your while to pursue it. Which I think is kind of the point.

Here's what I think is true that Casbolt is currently spending obscene amounts of time attempting to cover up with lies and racist rhetoric designed to divide and conquer: that he and I were both involved with time travel experiments.

Yep, I said it. Of that I am increasingly thinking this is why so much time and energy has been spent discrediting himself as well as others by being as literally repellent as he possibly can be. Once you talk about something as out there as time travel, the logic seems to be that you almost have to pad it with a bunch of crap so labyrinthian that no one takes you seriously just as a self-protective measure to keep you from getting offed by the Powers That Be.

But time and again, I keep remembering, having, and experiencing memories and/or direct experiences of cybernetics, incredible psychic skills, superhuman abilities, knowledge of things we don't do in waking life like driving submarines and speaking different languages fluently and participating in incredible feats of intelligence, strength, speed and agility, both physical and mental, experiencing, participating in and witnessing horrific abuse of all kinds, and then of course the most forbidden/provocative topic of all, being an active participant in time travel.

From all of us whom I am involved with in these programs I get recovered memories of these kinds. Over and over again. And only with certain people. A small, horribly consistent group of people. Most of whom have horrific tales of abuse and subsequent dissociative identity disorder and/or post traumatic stress disorder in their backgrounds and in their day to day lives.

I hope this gives you some context for what I am talking about. I hope this solves something and gives some kind of resolution that you might require. I hope it helps and does no harm.

Anyway, here is the original post from March 6th, 2011:

For those of you who don't know what IBIS is, it is a life extension program that was used on 42 children around the world. Age regression was a recurring theme.

Here is a link for more info on that:

http://projectcamelotproductions.com/interviews/james_casbolt/james_casbolt.html

and on a blog here:

http://wemustknow.net/2010/10/the-life-and-times-of-michael-prince/


"The name of the project was IBIS.
42 children tracked in various contries.
Blood PRIME was being tracked by the NSA and MI6- Annunaki DNA.
Project started in 1972, initiated from Tavistock institute by Dr Green and others"

FYI, "Dr. Green" is supposedly Josef Mengele.

When I found out, I didn't want to believe it. God knows I don't want to be a part of this. But James Casbolt has sent me information corroborated from a third party in covert programs with James who shall remain nameless who remembers me from an underground base in Canada in 1975. We were taken there and experimented on for weeks at a time when we were around 4 years old. This person doesn't know me consciously and yet without any information from James, he was able to give him my full name. I am also pretty sure he also remembers me as an adult in other contexts as well, I shudder to think which ones. He hasn't said yet and I am not sure I want to know at this point.

Supposedly this person was also one of the super soldiers whose memories were warehoused inside of me for safe keeping when I was taken on board a TR3 by James in 1999.

I did a Skype session recently with this person and was absolutely unsettled by the conversation. I instantly recognized this person and yet had never met him in this conscious reality before the meeting.

It was only after the conversation that I was flooded with deeply unsettling recollections of experiments done on me that James Casbolt was forced to participate in. I have memories of the third party as well, but they are more limited in scope. This person told me he usually gets recovered memories after speaking with others in the programs, which has been a typical response for me as well.

For some reason, James wasn't even supposed to be born in 1975, but I have memories of him being involved as well as a child about the same age as me. Bear in mind, this was/is an age regression program that could age you and regress you for whatever purposes those in the programs want(ed), so it very well could have been him at age 4, 5, or 6, even though this took place a good year before he was even supposed to be born.

For some reason, I know that it is James who is with me in these memories even though I am six years older than him. (I could be wrong, of course. But the memory is that I have known this person for a long time and I "recognized" James as a child from his energy if that makes any sense. I could be blending memories with others as well, it could be James' contact who I spoke with the other day, it may be another little boy, but for some reason I want to say this is James. It's very confusing. Please bear with me.)

I may publish my recovered memories of these experiences when I am ready, but they are deeply disturbing for me and it's hard.

Behold A Pale Horse

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