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Toxic Attachment Trauma After Emotional Neglect

Manifesto

It's Your Funeral. Just Sayin'.

2017 is going to be all about restructuring. They're coming. Get ready for it. 

If you aren't, it's your loss. 

Not mine. 

Blessings,

A-

Sibling Spiritual Attacks, Rivalry, Abuse - Family Disputes

I'm not a religious person, but this is an epic sermon. Thank you for testifying, whomever this person is. Thank you for this beautiful speech for anyone who survived dysfunctional families and the little-talked about issue of sibling abuse who routinely backstab you/abuse you/betray you and then expect loyalty because: "family".

If the religious language makes you uncomfortable, replace it with "inner guidance", "Love",
"self-esteem", " healthy boundaries"
 "well-being", and "health, wellness, sanity and sovereignty". 

Blessings~

#ListenToTheFeelingBehindTheWordsNotTheDogma

Large Group of Margaret Thatcher's Cabinet Participated in "Abuse Parties", Murder, Organized Pedophilia "Rent Boy" Rings

“He has outlined how organized the abuse was. How a car would be sent to collect him and he would be taken somewhere. The abuse he was subjected to was carried out by a man acting alone or a group of men or even what can only be described as parties… Today I want to appeal directly to those other young boys, now men, who were also subject to abuse at the hands of these men. I believe that there were other boys who were abused, or who were present whilst the abuse took place.”

Nick, and another survivor who has spoken to Exaro allege that policemen and senior security officials were among the abusers, giving the impression that they were acting with impunity.

A Scotland Yard inquiry has been established to investigate whether the Metropolitan Police was guilty of overlooking the crimes of powerful figures, or whether some kind of cover-up operation was in place.

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2014/12/18/victim-i-watched-british-mps-sexually-abuse-murder-young-boys.html?via=twitter_page

For more similar/related: 

http://aanirfan.blogspot.com/2014/11/cameron-minister-abused-young-boy.html

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/westminster-child-abuse-scandal-coalition-4576718

War Veterans Are Using MMA To Treat Their PTSD: Fightland Specials

For the Veterans and those who still actively serve, God bless and may peace be with you~

Joy Division - Transmission

System Re-victimizes, Pathologizes Victim, Sides with Offender, Abuser

Premise to interlude


Wait till all bones pretrude


You're convexed, you're convert


There is a stain on your shirt

Semi-sweet, seminude


The remorse you can't hide


Now we molt, past our skin


And make room to begin

Symmetry


You must work in symmetry


You must earn their empathy


Empathy, empathy, empathy

Symmetry


You must work in symmetry


You must earn their empathy


Empathy, empathy, empathy

Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down on me

The final chrysalis


Self-controlled consciousness


Now it feels imminent


Done for your benefit

Eat right out of their hand


Its concaved all your glands


We're encouraged to forget


Preference to be force-fed

Symmetry


You must work in symmetry


You must earn their empathy


Empathy, empathy, empathy

Symmetry


You must work in symmetry


You must earn their empathy


Empathy, empathy, empathy

Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down on me


Down, down, cities fall down

You must earn our empathy


You must earn our empathy


You must earn our empathy


You must earn our empathy

You must earn our empathy


You must earn our empathy


You must earn our empathy

Songwriters
KATH, ETHAN / GLASS, ALICE

Published by
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

"Ecclesiastical Discipline"

The terms "desert compound" or "have iron bars put on the windows" are never good signs either.

For more on the CoS mind control/L Ron's connection to my fave "Sea Org", The Office of Naval Intelligence/Satanism here:

and more weird, completely dysfunctional, anti-humanity info here about L. Ron and the CoS:

http://anyaisachannel.blogspot.com/2013/07/the-satanic-roots-of-church-of.html

http://anyaisachannel.blogspot.com/2013/07/more-celebrity-defections-from-church.html

Best 9/11 Vid Ever

Trauma culture also comes from being lied to and gaslighted and knocked around so much you feel like you are in a bumper car at the amusement park. 

Which is the state of mind sociopaths like you to be in. 

Mind over Matter: Secrets of human aura revealed by Russian scientists

I see colors coming off of people's energy fields left and right and know that when the color is in the wrong spot on the human form, it means they are in imbalance, usually emotionally and health-wise too. The energy body holds much trauma and emotion that is not allowed to be expressed properly as well, and humans are so sensitive and so subliminally psychically developed, that if for example, they are told as children to hide their emotions and be "tough" and not show any pain visibly, they will in fact hide it away in a spot on the physical form. 

Often I have found people's middle backs, shoulders, below the shoulder blades, and throat as well as heart area are most affected and the most common places to hide pain. Interestingly enough, monarch slaves and super soldiers will also have an unusual placement of black attacking energy when worked on in the forearms and arms. I have never experienced that part of the body having energetic issues with anyone else.

Psychological trauma will place this pain on the human form and manifest usually in the form of migraine headaches, joint aches and pains, intestinal issues,  arthritis, and carpal tunnel syndrome as well as other chronic or ongoing pain issues until the real issue is dealt with, which 90% of the time is either past life pain that has no place in the present life, or issues dealing with emotional suffering, neglect, pain and trauma in this life that were never properly dealt with emotionally and psychologically that has been the burden of the client to carry around with them their whole lives without fully realizing they are doing it. 

Disease can be broken down as a word: dis-ease. That is exactly what can happen as well when people sometimes form colds, flu, infections, and the like due to immune system imbalance from said hiding of pain as well. 

In most industrialized nations, we live in a totally imbalanced, dysfunctional culture that says it is "inappropriate" to express pain and suffering in the public format. It's considered not "going along to get along' if someone confronts the source of their pain verbally, and you are considered "difficult" if you have the audacity to call someone out  on their behavior who have caused this. 

This is another form of the perceived rule of authoritarianism, fascism, narcissism, socipathy, rape culture, violence culture, abuse culture, "Top-Dog/Underdog" thinking, Madison Avenue advertising brainwashing, heirarchies, slavery, the deliberate dumbing down of people and the agenda of the cult of death that says that pain is good, pleasure is stupid, and confusing the two sensations is the way the world works and what will get you ahead. 

Not surprisingly that is the agenda of the illuminati as well. This is the definition of trauma culture. 

This way of thinking eventually for most people is what will also cause autoimmune disorders and cancer too- the body literally activates its inflamatory response and causes the person to literally begin attacking themself from within with the contradictory lies and disinformation they have been told about themselves and the nature of reality for years.

 Pick and choose your battles carefully, but nine times out of ten, it is always better to hash it out with someone and confront them on a slight or issue as soon as possible, or as soon as is necessary to nip the problem in the bud. 

Often it will be a slight misunderstanding and the situation can correct itself, hopefully achieving a better state of mind and relationship with the person you are confronting. 

In my experience however, I know there were many people who either wanted to deliberately hurt me, or who were guided through someone else, whether surreptitiously or directly, to cause me hurt and suffering in a pathetic attempt to block my path. (Newsflash: It hasn't, won't, and can't stop my path. So have fun with that, cowards. But you will continue to fail as you always have.)

 Still, after using judiciousness and discernment and deciding to act, it is always better to confront these bullies head on as well, because nine times out of ten they will cowardly skulk off and never confront you again, thus easing your pain and suffering immediately. 

Those people are designed by nature or by programming to never be happy within themselves, which is a shame. They have been led to believe they are the controllers as well. 

Nothing could be further from the truth. They are slaves.

Blessings,

Anya

Well, this is interesting.

http://vigilantcitizen.com/latestnews/gigantic-pentagram-found-in-kazakhstan-can-be-seen-in-google-maps/

This definitely made me stop and take a look. Not the least of why is because I have for months now, on an almost daily basis, been getting visits to my blog from Kazakhstan of all places.

 I mistakenly thought this was just US or foreign military/military intelligence abroad taking a look. 

But yes, I have been getting quite a few hits on the old visitor log from that area of the world lately, and for some time now.  I didn't know about Astana being an occult capital for the New World Order. 

Well now you know.

Interesting that Astana is an anagram of Satana and is most definitely being built almost exclusively by one black Masonic occult Illuminist oligarch with a thing for the film Total Recall as well.

If I might address the occult element there, then: 

Hi, hope you're having fun. People are waking up and it won't be long now, "people" who hide in the shadows like bugs. 

There are those who won't take any more of your sociopathy, and the situation will be corrected.

Make no mistake. 

Пожалуйста!

UPDATE, 8/14/13: More on Kazakhstan, I'm sure this is totally unrelated!

 http://anyaisachannel.blogspot.pt/2013/08/kazakh-scientists-say-that-aliens.html

Your time is gonna come

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/jimmy-savile-celeb-arrests-could-2097740

Yet another interview was sabotaged. No matter. Word's getting out, gentlemen, you scumbags, you. Third time's a charm.

I'm floating over strange land,
It's a soulless, sequined, showbiz moon.
I'm floating over strange land,
And then stranger still, there's no balloon.
But I'm getting higher,
Wafted up by fame's fickle fire 'til the...

Chalkhills and children,
Anchor my feet.
Chalkhills and children,
Bringing me back to earth,
Eternally and ever Ermine Street.
(Even I never know where I go when my eyes are closed.)

I'm skating over thin ice,
Upon blunted blades of metal soft.
I'm skating over thin ice,
While some nonesuch net holds me aloft.
But I'm getting higher,
Lifted up on lucks' circus wire 'til the...

Chalkhills and children,
Anchor my feet.
Chalkhills and children,
Bringing me back to earth,
Eternally and ever Ermine Street.

Even I never know where I go when my eyes are closed.
Even I never spied that the scenes were posed.
Even I never knew this is what I'd be.
Even eyes never mean that you're sure to see.

Still I'm getting higher,
Rolling up on three empty tyres, 'til the...

Chalkhills and children,
Anchor my feet.
Chalkhills and children,
Bringing me back to earth,
Eternally and ever Ermine Street.

I'm soaring over hushed crowds,
The reluctant cannonball it seems.
I'm soaring over hushed crowds,
I'm propelled up here by long dead dreams.

Still I'm getting higher,
Icarus regrets and retires puzzled.

Chalkhills and children,
Anchor my feet.
Chalkhills and children,
Oddly complete.
(Even I never know where I go when my eyes are all closed.)

Here I go again.

For those who know and need to hear this

 

They're really ratcheting up the attacks on consciousness, Ladies and Gentlemen. Could it be they are scared? Panicked, even?

 
http://vigilantcitizen.com/musicbusiness/the-illuminati-symbolism-of-kehas-die-young-and-how-it-ridicules-the-indoctrinated-masses/ 

Jimmy Savile was part of Satanic ring of abusers

http://www.express.co.uk/news/uk/370439/Jimmy-Savile-was-part-of-satanic-ring

Project IBIS

This update was also added to the original March, 2011 post. Thanks for reading. 

UPDATE: June 15th, 2013

I want to make a slight retraction here. Apparently there have been more visits on this blog post so far than any other post in my blog's history and it is because of the Erin Green Hicks interview with Project Camelot.

My personal feelings are that this woman is a very mentally troubled -- delusional, even --  individual, and that Kerry Cassidy has displayed an incredibly irresponsible, egregious lack of journalistic integrity by allowing this interview to occur without doing due diligence or in using any of her world-famous "discernment" and "intuition" that she claims is so strong.

 I was told by a source that Hicks claims that she was a Rothschild were also false- the name was purchased. Not to mention several wild inconsistencies in her statements in the interview just don't add up - among others, she was given money from the sale of what she said was Jesse James's .357 Magnum, but while the .357 Magnum was first made in 1934, Jesse James died in 1882.

Also, Hicks posted on Facebook in a comment directed at me that she was in basically all the mind control programs ever made, including IBIS, and when I challenged her on this statement, she laid into me about a purely fictitious conversation with someone she refused to name who supposedly told her that I told them how I "rip people off" by "making them think I am psychic".

Uh, no. This conversation never happened. And if I ever said something like that, say, to someone equally delusional like Sarah Stanga when we were still on speaking terms, it would have always and ever been A JOKE. A sarcastic joke. Of course the first thing to go out the window with mental illness is a sense of humor, so I am not surprised if I had said something like that in jest, a not well at all person would have construed that as fact, when it was not.

It's funny that Cassidy, who was born in a military hospital, grew up in the CIA and mind control incubator/hotbed of Palo Alto, California (same area near Berkeley that Alejandro, my "favorite" paid informant/his intelligence agent dad is from/lives and where many agents retire and congregate).

It's also funny to think that Cassidy, who is one of the researchers who attended the infamous Bilderberg-style secret UFO researcher mind-controlled conference in Bucks County, Pa., last fall (http://anyaisachannel.blogspot.com/2013/05/you-got-some-splainin-to-do.html) and has allegedly been involved with a high-ranking MI5 official who has been feeding her disinfo for years, "chose" someone like Hicks to interview.

My "discernment" and "intuition" tells me that Green is in fact a plant who IS in one mind control program- but it's not IBIS. It's one whose name escapes me at the moment, but a very real one that is run by the CIA and uses high functioning paranoid schizophrenics to muddy the waters in COINTELPRO type situations like this. In other words, Erin Green Hicks is probably (allegedly) an unwitting CIA asset.

The feds made Erin think she was all of this and more (if she's a psychic super soldier and a Rothschild, I'm a Mr. Softy ice cream truck) and then unleashed her on the public by "creating an opportunity" at the equally suspect and to be avoided at all costs CIA-infused Super Soldier Summit in California last May.

Regardless, I feel it necessary to clarify on my original points pertaining to what no doubt has been someone messing with my head about the origins of this project, which may or may not exist under the label of "IBIS".

When I first found out about the fact that I was a military abductee by Aaron McCollum in April, 2010, my head was spinning for months. This was without a doubt, one of the most traumatic times in my entire life and I was searching for answers and incredibly vulnerable. When James Casbolt came into my life not long after and told me that he remembered me from mind control programs, to say it was shocking was an understatement. But deep down, I think my reaction was so strong because I actually knew that there was a basis for his statements. I experienced the familiar feeling of having a high level of recognizing him without knowing why, a high volume of psychic activity coming from him, a number of weird synchronicities and odd timings in communication with him, and of course the obvious indicator of my experience as a MILAB, recovered memories of him.

Say what you will about Casbolt, but his interactions with me are indicative of the "real deals" from mind control programs whom I have met, and that is a- very- small number of people.  No more than one or two handfuls of people in the whole world have I met who have this profoundly disturbing effect on me. And fancy that, we all seem to remember each other.

If I remember someone, I remember them. Period. End of story. I don't know how, but it always follows the same dreadful pattern of a flood of bizarre, no context whatsoever but linearly progressed memories unfolding suddenly and horribly like they are on a movie screen, the familiar shock, the feeling of falling down a hole, the horrible dread, the numbness, the sweat that breaks out, the nausea-- all the familiar symptoms of being triggered.

With Hicks, I have experienced none of this. Nada. Zilch.

Do I think people like Casbolt are master manipulators who make no secret of their ability to remote influence people and utilize hypnosis on them through methods like neurolinguistic programming? Absolutely. Do I think there's a possibility I could have been worked over hard mentally by this man? Yes.

But I still cannot escape the fact that Casbolt still might legitimately have been, in if not in IBIS, some kind of similarly eugenics-based psychic/genetic manipulation/human test subject/mind control programs with me.

There are literally too many "coincidences" and telepathic/psychic experiences, and corroborations I've had pertaining to him independent of any kind of remote control "massaging" and "priming of the pump" from him that for him to be this much of a master at organization and control over me seems suspect.

I can personally tell you from direct conversations by phone and years of emails with this man that he has serious trouble distinguishing reality from fantasy as he is definitely plagued with some kind of dissociative disorder (there are hundreds, not just DID) that he still struggles with every day-- even though he is also incredibly psychic, and something definitely has happened to him in mind control programs. Of that I have no doubt.

Do I think that my associations with Casbolt are the sum total of what has happened to me, however? No. Because these triggers have been happening to me with other people, like Aaron McCollum, who has basically admitted to abducting me in a MILAB, and this was months before I had even met or communicated with Casbolt.

I was introduced to another woman who was apparently also abducted by Aaron, and I had the exact same triggered reaction to her that I did to McCollum and Casbolt, and again, this was well before I had even communicated with James. (This woman wishes to remain anonymous, but we both remember each other from the programs and have spooky similarities in how we react to these things, are both incredibly psychic, etc etc.  I also know from recovered memories with her in them that she was a courier like I was and used in what either was something to make us think we were time traveling or we actually were time traveling back to places like Russia and the Truman Administration Oval Office, both in the late 40s/1947.  I have talked about this in several interviews, sorry, can't remember the exact ones right now, but you'll find them if you go to my "Links I like" column of this blog and just click on the ones you'd like to hear, you'll hear me talk about it eventually.)

With that said, please read this original post. Thank you for your patience. It's much less traumatic to have to deal with this horrific- whatever it is that's been done to me- since I originally posted this in March, 2011.  But it's still hard, it's still baffling, and it's still very much a confusing, traumatic reality for me to deal with, one that I hope I can get some light shed on and some answers from before I die.
I want to know what this is that's being done to me. I don't care if it's all just been a big practical joke at my expense and I've just been Punked all along. I just want to know what's really happened.

And I want to prosecute the people who did this. Even if it's just a truth and reconciliation situation. I want the world to know that something horrible has happened to all of us in this and to not let it happen again.

I don't know for sure anymore if I am one of those 42 children, or even if there were 42 children to begin with. Casbolt HAS been a disinformation agent. But not your typical one. There is something going on with him legit, but it takes so long to find the (truly bizarre) kernel of truth in what he says at the heart of it that he makes it almost not worth your while to pursue it. Which I think is kind of the point.

Here's what I think is true that Casbolt is currently spending obscene amounts of time attempting to cover up with lies and racist rhetoric designed to divide and conquer: that he and I were both involved with time travel experiments.

Yep, I said it. Of that I am increasingly thinking this is why so much time and energy has been spent discrediting himself as well as others by being as literally repellent as he possibly can be. Once you talk about something as out there as time travel, the logic seems to be that you almost have to pad it with a bunch of crap so labyrinthian that no one takes you seriously just as a self-protective measure to keep you from getting offed by the Powers That Be.

But time and again, I keep remembering, having, and experiencing memories and/or direct experiences of cybernetics, incredible psychic skills, superhuman abilities, knowledge of things we don't do in waking life like driving submarines and speaking different languages fluently and participating in incredible feats of intelligence, strength, speed and agility, both physical and mental, experiencing, participating in and witnessing horrific abuse of all kinds, and then of course the most forbidden/provocative topic of all, being an active participant in time travel.

From all of us whom I am involved with in these programs I get recovered memories of these kinds. Over and over again. And only with certain people. A small, horribly consistent group of people. Most of whom have horrific tales of abuse and subsequent dissociative identity disorder and/or post traumatic stress disorder in their backgrounds and in their day to day lives.

I hope this gives you some context for what I am talking about. I hope this solves something and gives some kind of resolution that you might require. I hope it helps and does no harm.

Anyway, here is the original post from March 6th, 2011:

For those of you who don't know what IBIS is, it is a life extension program that was used on 42 children around the world. Age regression was a recurring theme.

Here is a link for more info on that:

http://projectcamelotproductions.com/interviews/james_casbolt/james_casbolt.html

and on a blog here:

http://wemustknow.net/2010/10/the-life-and-times-of-michael-prince/


"The name of the project was IBIS.
42 children tracked in various contries.
Blood PRIME was being tracked by the NSA and MI6- Annunaki DNA.
Project started in 1972, initiated from Tavistock institute by Dr Green and others"

FYI, "Dr. Green" is supposedly Josef Mengele.

When I found out, I didn't want to believe it. God knows I don't want to be a part of this. But James Casbolt has sent me information corroborated from a third party in covert programs with James who shall remain nameless who remembers me from an underground base in Canada in 1975. We were taken there and experimented on for weeks at a time when we were around 4 years old. This person doesn't know me consciously and yet without any information from James, he was able to give him my full name. I am also pretty sure he also remembers me as an adult in other contexts as well, I shudder to think which ones. He hasn't said yet and I am not sure I want to know at this point.

Supposedly this person was also one of the super soldiers whose memories were warehoused inside of me for safe keeping when I was taken on board a TR3 by James in 1999.

I did a Skype session recently with this person and was absolutely unsettled by the conversation. I instantly recognized this person and yet had never met him in this conscious reality before the meeting.

It was only after the conversation that I was flooded with deeply unsettling recollections of experiments done on me that James Casbolt was forced to participate in. I have memories of the third party as well, but they are more limited in scope. This person told me he usually gets recovered memories after speaking with others in the programs, which has been a typical response for me as well.

For some reason, James wasn't even supposed to be born in 1975, but I have memories of him being involved as well as a child about the same age as me. Bear in mind, this was/is an age regression program that could age you and regress you for whatever purposes those in the programs want(ed), so it very well could have been him at age 4, 5, or 6, even though this took place a good year before he was even supposed to be born.

For some reason, I know that it is James who is with me in these memories even though I am six years older than him. (I could be wrong, of course. But the memory is that I have known this person for a long time and I "recognized" James as a child from his energy if that makes any sense. I could be blending memories with others as well, it could be James' contact who I spoke with the other day, it may be another little boy, but for some reason I want to say this is James. It's very confusing. Please bear with me.)

I may publish my recovered memories of these experiences when I am ready, but they are deeply disturbing for me and it's hard.